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How lucky is this? I wanted to watch Hedwig and the Angry Inch so bad earlier and when I went to grab the DVD I remembered that my sister had borrowed it. Bummer. So I was flipping through movie channels trying to find something else that sounded good, and guess what was just starting. Mmhmm. God's ALWAYS got my back.
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[27 Dec 2009|10:12pm] |
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... that upon realizing that you're being a total dick, the appropriate action to take is to go to the person you're being a total dick to and say, "I'm sorry, but I'm being a total dick." And then stop being a total dick.
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[27 Dec 2009|03:23am] |
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Rise Against - Swing Life Away |
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On Christmas Eve I had to go to the store for egg nog because nobody remembered it and we really believe that holidays should be celebrated with the appropriate alcoholic beverage. So anyway, I'm at the store grabbing egg nog and this really cute man walks by and looks at me, so I smile at him. And he walks over and says "I'm so glad I saw you today because I would have forgotten to buy egg nog and I'm having a Christmas party later. I could drink one of these all by myself." And all I did was say, "Maybe should get more than one then." And he cracked up and said, "Wait until I tell everybody about this! They're going to be so happy I met you." I could not be anything but happy after I talked to him. There really should be more people like that in the world.
Gr, and by "really cute man" I don't mean I wanted to nail him right there in the dairy case. He was a tiny, cute, little old black man with a big, big smile.
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[26 Dec 2009|03:20am] |
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I really didn't forget about updating this again. I'm just making it friends only for a while.
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[23 Dec 2009|09:42am] |
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Crap. I didn't realize when I was deleting everything else that I deleted my f'ing list.
Why does it feel like you always have to choose between a good relationship and great sex? I want both, damnit.
I want a man who's smart and challenges me. Who likes to cuddle and kiss. Who is quick witted and sarcastic (in the funny way, not the mean way) and can keep me on my toes. Who doesn't stink and likes to be clean. Who has a big heart and makes me wanna be a better person. Who's open and honest and does what he says he will. Who, when holding me in bed, doesn't breathe hard on me or snore in my ear. Who communicates what he feels and doesn't leave you guessing. Who's genuinely interesting and I can have fun with doing just... nothing. Who's not afraid to let me know he actually gives a shit and has no problems expressing it. AND who screws my brains out.
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[23 Dec 2009|12:36am] |
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Headphones on. Rachmaninoff's Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini, 15m43s - 18m44s, on loop. All. Fucking. Night. And everything will be okay. Because it always is.
EDIT @ 1:30 - Holy moly! I got over that so quick. How cheesy is it that I like playing on Neopets and racking up points and buying the stuff that costs a ton and giving it away to random people. And I like to win the auctions and just give whatever the item was to the first person who bid. I wish I was a billionaire so I could do that everyday in real life. I would be the happiest person ever.
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[22 Dec 2009|10:06pm] |
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Nevaeh's snoring! |
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I feel like I've conquered the world. At 8:45 tonight not only was N. Lea in bed, she was ASLEEP! I usually don't care when she goes to sleep as long as she's in bed by 10-10:30. But last night she pitched a fit to get out of bed and even after I told my mom no at least 5 times, she got her and let her stay up. I was the one who listened to her scream all night because she thought it'd work again. So tonight I had to reclaim my authority. And it actually only took about an hour.
Holy crap, my mind is complete mush right now. I just went to make coffee and I was pouring the creamer and it started running all over the floor. I know I stood there for a good 10 seconds like "What the hell? How did that happen?" before I looked up and realized I didn't even have the bottle over my cup. Not good.
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[21 Dec 2009|04:15am] |
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Ryan Adams - Come Pick Me Up |
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I just talked David into signing over his rights to Nevaeh. And then told me, ugh... I don't even have to put it here because I'll never forget that. But my God am I seething. But that's okay because for all I've been through, my baby will be all mine.
Also, in general, what is the appeal of going after more than one girl at once? For guys. I know why girls do it. And I know why guys do it just for sex. So ya know, if you want anything real to come from either girl, why do you guys do that?
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[20 Dec 2009|02:59pm] |
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Last night was kind of monumental because for the first time in my life I actually felt hate AND lost complete faith that there was anything good in that hated person. And as much as I hate that he got to take that one last thing from me, I'm so excited because I don't have one ounce of empathy left for that piece of shit and I'll never again feel guilty for being a better person than him.
God's so funny in how he teaches you things. It really is hilarious if you think about it.
And I found this e-mail my mom sent me the first time he lied/cheated/broke my heart. She's so amazing. Now, WHY didn't I leave sooner?!
I have a thing for one of the guys on one of Nevaeh's kid shows. Big time. And while that's slightly embarrassing, at least he's not a cartoon or somebody in an animal suit.
EDIT: Ooo, I didn't even know they did non-kid stuff. This makes it so okay. Oh yes, the bald one, of course.
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[19 Dec 2009|05:32pm] |
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Oh my goodness. As much as I stress out about relationship stuff, as least I'm not as fucking crazy as my sister. That man puts up with so much shit from her and talks to her sooo sweet and she threatened to break up with him because when he took the 8th grade girls, whose basketball team he coaches, to the bowling alley...
HE DIDN'T WANT TO KISS HER IN FRONT OF THE KIDS.
For real. And I think it's funny that my mom is soooo not that kind of person, but me & Tina let such silly things get to us. Where did we learn that? Hm...
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[19 Dec 2009|10:07am] |
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I lost it!
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[17 Dec 2009|04:18pm] |
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Baby Donkey loves to eat juicy carrots. He is sitting down because he is tired. Somebody is trying to make him stand up and follow those carrots tied on the end of a stick. "I know that trick," he says.
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[17 Dec 2009|03:12am] |
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Watching Julie & Julia |
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I wish I could be more like Julia Child and Martha Stewart. Not only for their insane skills that, no matter how hard I try, I will always fall short of; but mostly because they're both so intellegent and tough and outspoken and Martha is so level-headed and Julia is so hilarious and relaxed and they're both so confident (Julia with her accidents-happen-never-apologize-for-them attitude and Martha with her perfection). But that's okay, right? Because I have the rest of my life to become an incredible woman?
(Jesse: You know, I was thinking and, aside from family and despite the fact that we sometimes go months without talking, you've got to be the most consistent person in my life.)
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[15 Dec 2009|01:07am] |
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Yesterday we were all having breakfast together and Kane had his glasses on. Nevaeh looked at him and said, "Is black Kane not wearing his glasses?" We were all confused for a second and then I remember that, oh my gosh, she had seen a picture of him from Halloween dressed as Snoop Dogg (in full blackface) and he was definitely not wearing his glasses. Being confused was the best part, but she's so freaking sharp. Sometimes she'll randomly tell me, "Get it girl." Thanks T.
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Oh, and you know what, Courtney Love? You're stupid. Fuck you. You had KURT COBAIN's child. Shame on you, bitch. KURT COBAIN! Too much.
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I spent an hour today playing "soccer" with Nevaeh in the pouring rain. We both slipped and fell so many times and were covered in mud. It was completely awesome.
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